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[23 May 2009|09:27am] |
i've become more and more stressed out with this whole job situation. it's hitting month 5 of not having a full-time real job with benefits.
there are almost no teaching jobs for next school year. i had two interviews in paulding county. one for an elementary school and one for a high school. i was told they would notify me of their decision within a week. two weeks passed, and i ended up having to call both schools. of course nobody answers, so i'm forced to leave messages. the elementary school called me back, and she said within 10 seconds that the position was filled and thank you for the interview. what that so hard? i don't know why they couldn't have called me back in the first place. the high school on the other hand.. instead of calling me back, they mailed a letter the next day. that kinda pissed me off. the woman couldn't spare 10 seconds of her life to call me back. she probably spent more time writing the letter, and more money on the postage than it would've taken to call me back. i was a bit insulted by that. that's just not how you treat people.
even though non-confrontation no-response seems to be the popular way to let people know they didn't get a job, it just isn't right. i really don't like how society has become like that. i don't think it's fair to just leave people hanging. i sat on edge for two weeks with my fingers crossed. i felt so confident. i thought i had nailed both the interviews. a little call as soon as you make your decision isn't so hard to ask for. it's polite. yeah, so you might get yelled at. but it feels better to know a solid answer then to be left in limbo. it's not even like i was competing against a pile of people. 4 people for each job, including me. it's not like there is a million people, and it's not like it's some shitty fast food job. these are real legit actual jobs.
so, needless to say, i've been exploring other options. i hope some openings pop up next week, since school is out for most counties... but things are looking quite grim. i've also go tons of people coming out of retirement to compete against. hell, even the lady i subbed for earlier in the semester
i had an interview at ksu the other day. the interview itself went really well, BUT i don't really want the job. it sounds like a cool opportunity, but it doesn't pay a livable wage. administrative assistants don't make $8.15 an hour. especially those with a bachelor's degree. if they come back and say they can pay me $12-13 an hour, i might consider it. the job is like two miles away, it comes with benefits, and i could get free tuition for grad school. BUT... i need more money.
i applied for a fantastic job at the anthropology department at georgia state. it's for the administrative coordinator position. it opened up on like thursday, but since i didn't work friday, i couldn't wander over there to introduce myself. i need to figure out what to wear on tuesday that gives them a good first impression. i figure it couldn't hurt to go hand a copy of my resume, and emphasize the fact i'm already working at state and have a whole department that could vouch for me. keep your fingers crossed.
i've been shopping a lot lately. it's kinda weird. i hit a point where i realized i was wearing the same thing every other day, and it was just bad. i've been stocking up on new tops for work.
i need to get a new pair of slip-ons, and i need a new purse.
i'm puppy sitting for my friend jay this weekend and we have four dogs in the house. he's got a puli and a doberman. bizarre dogs. the puli, quiche, was barking all night last night, so i'm kinda tired and grouchy.
i'm almost finished with my garden. we finally put a retaining wall in, and i transplanted the plants from my window boxes. :)
ian and i caught up on all of the episodes of lost, just in time to watch the season finale for this year. that show is kinda awesome.
i kinda miss the rest of my shows. eureka will pick up this summer, but i feel kinda lonely without something to watch.
uhmm.. that's it for now. bai!
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[18 Apr 2009|09:58am] |
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my grandpa died.
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[10 Mar 2009|10:24pm] |
the new toy.
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[12 Jan 2009|06:35pm] |
my neighbor ingmar came over last tuesday to see if i could photoshop a tree out of a picture. i struck a deal with him, saying that if he found me a job, i would take out the tree. a listing for mableton elm in cobb county had just gone up on the website like an hour earlier. i immediately applied, and mailed off a cover letter + resume. two days later i got a call asking to come in for an interview. the teacher i am taking over for is 8 months pregnant, and was just put on bed rest. the interview went really well. i was there for about an hour. the school is really small, like 400 kids, and the building is like 50 years old. it's pretty cool.
i got the call around 11 this morning saying asking if i still wanted the job. and of course, i said yes. it's a part time teaching position, so i will be working tuesdays, thursdays and every other friday. i at least get 2 1/2 months out of this gig, assuming everything goes according to plan. it's just a really good opportunity to get my feet in the door, especially with cobb county. AND all of the lesson plans are written out for the rest of the year.
i got my old job back at the school of music. i'm working there for like 15-20 hours a week, depending on what the elementary school needs from me.
so, i guess i'm working full time right now. :D
i've finally got a big girl job. WOO!
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[19 Dec 2008|02:44pm] |
straight a's sucka.....
final gpa = 3.55
:D
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[16 Dec 2008|03:16pm] |
In 2009,  jovial_pirate resolves to... Go to the rx bandits every month.
Tell my family about epitaph records.
Apply for a new raziel.
Go cartooning three times a week.
Lose ten zombies by March.
Cut down to ten bright eyes a day.
ruffle.
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[15 Dec 2008|09:10am] |
the graduation festivities continue.
saturday was my party. drunken calamities ensued. didn't drink to excess. puppies. rap music. tequila sunrises. pee wee herman. sabering champagne bottles. thanks to dante and michelle for coming. :D
sunday was clean up first thing in the morning. i sliced my finger open pretty badly, and my mom ended up having to dermabond it shut. it's still bruised and painful and gross. i had to pick my grandmother up from the airport. had family over at my parents house for graduation dinner. that was kinda fun.
today is the actual ceremony. i've got the psp all charged up to keep me entertained for the two hours i have to stand around in line. i don't know what my ability to stand with my friends will be, so we'll see.
jersey next week. new years might be spent in oklahoma city. we'll see.
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[08 Dec 2008|02:16pm] |
well, i survived.
i finished at meadowcreek last week. i can honestly say, i've never been happier to get out of a place.
ms. hellyer is a bad person. a really bad person. it wasn't just the fact we didn't get along... it was the fact she would belittle me in front of my students. she would talk trash about me to other teachers in the department. on teacher appreciation week, bells were bought by students and delivered to teachers... a bunch of students bought me bells, and even had my name on the little tag. ms. hellyer kept them. my students were a bit upset over that... but i didn't want to start shit with that woman. she made my life a living hell. she only wrote 1/6 evaluations for me. i need to start my draft to the principal. i'm going to send him a letter letting him know that i didn't enjoy my experience at meadowcreek because ms. hellyer was such a butthole to me.
but i'm done. graduation is in a week.
i've been playing a ridiculous amount of wow in the last week or so. i'm at level 62. :D
i had an interview with the cobb county arts coordinator today. she gave me some good advice, and she seems like the type who will help me land a job. i applied for a supply teach position at mceachern high school. fingers crossed!!
graduation party is on saturday. lemme know if ya wanna come. it'll be insane, just like the last two we had...
:D
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[30 Oct 2008|06:23am] |
i feel like i've been a shitty friend lately.
it's not that i don't want to hang out. i do want to hang out. i just don't have the energy to put forth an effort towards anything at the moment.
this is how my average weekday goes:
5:30 = wake up.
7:00 - 3:00 = teach.
3:30 - 5:00 = nap.
6:00 = dinner.
7:00 = world of warcraft or write lesson plans.
10:00 = bed.
my weekends consist of me driving up to kennesaw on friday and staying with ian until monday morning. i drive up there once, and park my car and not do anything. i only get to see him on weekends, so that time is kinda precious.
i'm exhausted all the time. school and money are stressing me out, and i've been fairly unpleasant as of late.
sorry. i'll come back as more of a full-time friend after this semester is over.
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[14 Sep 2008|08:58pm] |
i haven't been this upset or unhappy in quite some time.
i'm not doing well with this whole coming home thing, after amazing weekends. i usually end up crying the entire 45 minute drive home, because i get to spend the next week in an uncomfortable environment where people don't want me around.
my fucking parents locked me out of the house. they locked the glass door at the front. probably because they didn't want to be bothered or something. and i come home, with bags and my fucking computer. (yes, i haul my hackintosh to ian's every weekend.)... and i had to ring the doorbell. my parents made a big stink about it because i didn't call or something. FUCK. it's sunday. i come home every sunday.
i really can't stand living here.
i spend all of my afternoons alone playing world of warcraft and doing homework. i'm miserable. nobody's around anymore. everyone has things they are doing, and i have weird free hours. i've been using my time to slowly weed crap out of my bedroom that i really don't need anymore. i've slowly been going through my art supplies and condensing things. i've been throwing away magazines and papers from classes long ago. i really should just start packing all of that stuff up.
i'm not using and as soon as december 5th hits, i kinda want to be gone.
ian said i could stay with him until i got my bearings straight after graduation. more than likely, i'll take him up on that offer. dan won't be around at that point in time, and i'll be able to half-ass move in.
i am so fucking lonely. and my mom gets off of work at the same time i do. i don't like those two awkward hours with her before my dad comes home. it just makes me depressed. ian just moved into an actual office, where his computer monitors face away from the door. hopefully he will be able to be on gmail chat or something, and will be able to keep me company during those long afternoons. our 6 month anniversary is coming up. i think i'm going to make him some stuff for his new office.
i miss my brother so fucking much. i don't have anyone to really talk to anymore.
i can't afford to do anything anymore.
i'm not trying out for the derby, because i don't have enough money. or time. if it could wait until december, i'd be all over it. i'm kinda scared to talk to people about it. i am physically able to do the derby... but can't actually play because my broke ass is unemployed, and i have a 70 hour a week internship that makes me exhausted to the point where i can't function in the afternoons.
i'm fucked
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[31 Aug 2008|11:12pm] |
i'm kinda itchy and not feeling particularly well.
this weekend was dragon con. i waited an hour and a half on thursday to get my badge. i was pretty excited about going...
until i got there.
i was pretty lonely for the most part. i just didn't feel like i fit in, in comparison to the past two years. i had derby girls to be with. and that was fantastical. i sorta hung out with my friend michelle. i sorta hung out with buddy. i did hang out with dante. i was so tired and just not feeling well. i think the elementary school crud has started to settle in me. my throat hurts, my sinuses are bugging me, and i'm constantly tired.
so, i stayed friday night. i went to a room party that was fun. i went to bed around midnight, because i was having trouble standing. plus, at that point dante and ben were about to leave. and i was going to be alone, once again. i sold dante my badge for the rest of the weekend, since i knew i was probably going to be sick and miserable the entire time.
i ended up meeting a friend from my school for the parade. i took off after the parade and just went up to kennesaw. i ended up spending my afternoon helping ian rearrange stuff in his office/bedroom.
today was pretty uneventful. lots of lying there and not getting anything really accomplished, since i don't feel well.
i worked on my lesson plans.
i'm pretty stressed about this whole student teaching thing. it's going well. really well. i'm having a lot of fun. the whole time management thing is catching up with me tho. i feel like i've got way too much to do and not enough time. i spend a shit ton of time at the school trying to get things ready for the classes. i was asked to make a giant rainforest display, and i ended up spending a good ten hours on the project. lots of leaves, giant trees, flowers and a pair of monkeys. i started teaching 4th grade last week. i'm taking on 3rd next week. i get so nervous at the front of the classroom, that if i don't have an entire dialogue written up, i run out of things to say. that freaks me out a little. my gsu teacher is coming to visit in like two weeks, and on one of the visits, she is going to record me teaching. i really don't want to have to watch myself and write a paper on it. ugh. grossssss....
i'm running out of time for everything. almost every free second i am at home, it is spend writing papers and getting shit organized for class. i shouldn't be this stressed, but i've had a stomach ache for almost two weeks.
i keep crying.
i keep freaking out.
i'm not sure why.
ian's roommate really pissed me off today. he is really condescending towards me, because i'm a girl. apparently, it's my fault that the rest of my gender can't be competent. and you know... none of my points are ever valid. i can't have an opinion. but it's only when we're all sitting down to eat that he gets like that. i don't get it at all. the rest of the time, especially when it's just the two of us existing in the same room, he's a rightly acceptable individual.
i'm getting real irritated with the way they talk to me sometimes. i feel so stupid around them, because my opinion doesn't matter. it's wrong no matter what. i just wish they would fucking listen to me sometimes. ian is good about it when dan isn't around. but when the two of them are together, i just feel like shit. i end up spending the evening being grouchy and upset, and sneaking off somewhere to cry because they've pissed me off. and it usually happens late enough at night to where it's a problem. i can't drive well at night, so it's not like i can leave.
we've been dan free for the last two weekends. it's been real nice. i'm looking forward to him being gone for four months in oklahoma. he'll start air traffic control training, and won't be around. then ian can go back to being the sweet and charming man i like.
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[17 Aug 2008|03:54pm] |
hooray birthdays. i turn 22 today!
i had a silly party last night. dante, buddy and zach came. a bunch of ian's friends came over, too. drinks were had. there was a helicopter crash while the piano was being played. ian made me a really cute cake. we watched puppet porn. overall, it was a fantastical evening.
tonight will involve meeting my parents for dinner at chow baby, and helping ian study for his instrument exams tomorrow. i hope he does well.
student teaching on tuesday.
i don't want to go home tomorrow. that will not be pleasant at all. :(
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[15 Aug 2008|12:40am] |
I'm feeling pretty terrible at the moment.
This week has been kinda awful.
I took the GMAT today and just didn't do so well. I got a 490, which is just terrible. We weren't allowed to use calculators, so that combined with data sufficiency problems really kicked my ass. The verbal portion just didn't sit well with me, either. I can't read on the computer to save my life.
I actually studied for this exam, too. I put forth an effort and got the study book. I finished the damn thing. I took three full length practice exams, too. I just didn't get it.
I haven't felt this stupid in a long time. That exam kinda killed my self esteem. I just want to curl into a ball and cry until I feel better. It reassured me that I'm not really good at anything. I'm just mediocre at a lot of things. I'm pretty inadequate.
I've also been dealing with problems involving my brother. He is supposed to move in tomorrow. I was going to help him. We weren't sure how to get his stuff down there.. since I'm not at home, and I wasn't planning on going home. What would've made the most sense is for him to just meet me down there with his stuff in the afternoon, and we could worry about cars later on. I get this frantic phone call from him earlier today about how I needed to pick him and his stuff up from home. That's total bullshit. I'm not driving all the way from Kennesaw to home to pick his ass up and drive him back downtown. I've got work committments tomorrow.. and other shit going on. Dad offered to pay me $10, but that wouldn't even cover the cost of gasoline to drive that much. I managed to talk to my dad, and either him or mom will take care of Zach in the afternoon.
Ian's asleep right now. I tried to go to sleep with him, but he fell asleep before me. I just needed to write my thoughts down before I tried to go to sleep. I feel bad for being such a sad sack, since I know I'm no fun to be around when I'm one... but I can't help it right now. I just feel so lame.
I miss having lots of puppies in my life. I need that source of unconditional love hardcore. Echo just isn't enough.
My birthday is on Sunday. I was planning on having a small get together at Ian's house on Saturday with a few of my friends and a few of his friends. Turns out none of my friends are able to make it. So, I'm having a party with nothing but his friends. It makes me look pathetic and worthless. I mean, I know people have things going on. People are broke, and gas is expensive... but still. This keeps happening to me. Every fucking year. I'm not sure why I even bother anymore.
I think I'm gonna go lie down now....
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[30 Jul 2008|06:53pm] |
i've been kinda stressed and insomnia stricken the past couple of weeks. i don't know what's going on. i feel like i keep running out of time for everything. it's frustrating.
this is what is going on:
(1) tomorrow's my last day of class for summer semester. then two weeks of freedom before i start student teaching. i'm ready to get that over and done with. i'm a bit worried because i don't have enough clothes for student teaching. i might have to go to walmart and just buy a bunch of dickies workpants to wear. i definitely don't have enough different outfits to wear. oops!
(2) my birthday is in 17 days. i kinda dread my birthday. i'm not sure what's going on. maybe i could convince ian to let me take over his house for a throwdown of sorts. it wouldn't be anything big, but probably fun.
(3) i'm pretty piss as broke at the moment. i'm not making a whole lot of money. i'm not spending a whole lot of it, either. it just keeps disappearing to stupid things. mostly gas money. i'm real worried about the fall. i don't know how i'll be able to survive for three months without any sort of income. :( i think this has me stressed the most.
(4)echo has fleas, and they don't seem to be going away. he's had multiple flea baths and i put him on anti-flea medication. i'm half tempted to tie him down and spray him with raid (of course, i won't.)... we shaved him last night. we kinda did a terrible job. he's all weird and patchy and uneven. oh well. it helped a little bit with getting the fleas out of his fur. he looks pretty ridiculous.
(5) things with ian seem to be going well. he's a good one. he's real sweet to me and treats me right. :) i love him a lot. we make a pretty good team.
(6) season 3 of eureka started last night. that show's fantastic.
(7) GMAT on august 14th. wish me luck. i think i'll do fine, but i'm still a bit stressed about it. it was real fucking expensive ($250!).... so i need to do well. blargh!
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[23 Jul 2008|05:42am] |
last couple of days have been kinda weird.
i blew an alternator belt, and got stranded at the publix in kennesaw. ian, being the wonderful boyfriend that he is, came to my rescue. not only did he jump my car, but he figured out what was wrong with it and fixed it. i love that boy.
we flew down to florida for the past weekend, and i got to meet his mom and grandma. they liked me. :D we also saw batman while we were down there. it was absolutely fantastic.
his puppy got fleas. and i had to give him a flea bath. and i've been real itchy the past couple of days. i personally don't have fleas, but it certainly feels like it. i was up all night itching and going crazy. :(
i hung out with my friend caity last night. it was awesome seeing her again.
my summer class is going well. my book came in. i've got all of my assignments done. it's all gravy.
it's cold in my basement.
i don't like going home anymore.
uhhhh...
yup.
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[11 Jul 2008|05:42am] |
coming home last night was one of the hardest things to do.
after they put her down, i drove up to kennesaw to help avoid my problems for a little bit. it was alright. i cried a lot. it was hard. i put her tags on a chain, and i've been wearing them since.
there wasn't a puppy to bark at me when i got home. maggie used to like to stand by the front window and greet us. even when she wasn't feeling well, she still mustered up the ability to get up and come bark at us. it was so cute.
there are furballs from her all over the house. we keep finding bones stashed in weird places.
i haven't slept well in a few days.
i feel like a piece of me is gone.
i miss my puppy so much.
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[09 Jul 2008|05:36am] |
i've been having a pretty horrendous week.
remember when maggie had fur?
she also used to be quite pudgy.
she got old real fast. :(
i love my maggie dog.
at 3:15 today, she's probably being put to sleep.
she's lost mobility in her back legs. she can't breathe well. she doesn't have much fur left. she's constantly shaking.
and naturally, i'm heartbroken.
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[30 Jun 2008|09:17am] |
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i think i love him.
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[21 Jun 2008|06:20am] |
i cut off my hair! :)
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